=face upward in prayer and the crackling sound of a train announcement

i'm in love with the routine (some routines) once i get it started. might make sense to have the action of the movie work in repeating cycles with alterations. although it shouldnt be obvious that it is a cycle. at least not on the first viewing. but some kind of structure would be good. like how the 3-act dramatic narrative exists as such a trope of the film industry, i could just invent a different type of formula. maybe it could incorporate ideas of rising and falling action, climax, resolution, etc. but in a different order? but probably would be better to just start fresh. gotta keep thinking about this. was thinking recently while painting a shed: how it feels so good to work so hard, maybe it's something we've lost evolutionarily like people say. painting that shed, making clothes, (maybe i could make costumes for the movie? don't want to take this line of thought in too literal a direction though..)

also been thinking about a theme or idea for the narrative. maybe it should be about how all of a human's cell's regenerate every 7 years or whatever the number is, making them a completely different physical entity. it's about the soul or something that it can't really be about, but it tries to be.

my family should be in the movie. was re-reading this ryan trecartin interview (http://www.viceland.com/int/v17n11/htdocs/ryan-trecartin-596.php) and getting into the way he emphasizes collaboration. i think developing an interest in non-narrative or non-traditional screen-based work a few years ago led me to back away from movie-making in general and also collaboration.

unrelated: was thinking that it might be interesting to pay a group of kids an hourly wage to play, and video them. how it would change the dynamic of their play once it was work..

also: in the installation, the sculptural elements could be somehow related to/featured in the video rather than purely auxiliary